Omg, I dunno this semester can I survive?? Report Writing is killing me & CSO is a subject which no interest & the more I study, d more I feel like burning the book away. I can imagine my result for this semester, proberly will really do badly which I don wish to.. *sigh*
Worst till, I've heard next year semester the Module is totally hardcore like mad & very dead. All about internet stuff like wat kind of virus, sercurity etc. Hello!!! Are we studying Customer Service Management or Technology?!! Though I know it's just ONLY ABIT of link but I find really not necessary de lorr!!!! Well, I feel like giving up... Then regarding about Report Writing, my Form Teacher says Poly will "LAGI" more Report Writing, which now the Report Writing I already do like siao & complaint like mad, can't imagine Poly life.. FML!! Kill me wif a knife then.
Seriously, I'm really very very very worried about it & u know wat?? Thinking back, I kinda regret when I was teens ii diNt work hard & learn well enough if not I wouldn't be struggling now.. Hopefully everything's goes well. I dare not reach the top of mountain cOs I'm afraid I will fall badly however I will keep climbing & just give my best.
P.S: " Poly you are near yet I feel u are sO far, am I able to reach you??" Sometimes I find myself sO contridating!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
U've been into my heart, do u know that??
Wow, it had been a long time for not updated my Blog le, here I am.. heEex. ^^ Blog! I'm in love!!! But but ii can't cOs ii knew there won't have result.
Well, this special guy have slowly, step a step enter into my heart. With him, ii will feel different emotion. Dunno y, when he was sad or sick, ii will feel upset & if he's happy or enthu, ii will feel the same as him.
Just recently, I had a guy friend told me he like me & hug me but I can't bring myself to hug him. And it's like very weird, that special guy sudden appear in my mind... I thought ii had given up on him cOs he did said something indirectly & ii knew we can never be together but just when my guy friend hug me ii pushed him away. Anyway ii dOn think he will like me too cOs of ... ... Maybe I like him will always keep inside my heart.
I reM. here a English saying: "some people are meant to be in love but not meant to be." I agree, probably I not meant to be wif him not even mention about liking him. Haha most funniest thing, he always thought I like another person but he doesn't know all along ii like him. Lol. However, I'm disappointed too cOs ii can't feel he like me at all... Maybe we're just good friend that only laugh together, play together but not into relationship. I don't mean soon but ii think will never too. Sometimes ii really envy of his ex-girlfriend, she got his heart & ii 99.9% gurantee that his heart still wif her no matter wat problems or feelings he facing. He will just keep it into his heart & ii doubt he will mention to me ba eventhough ii really wanted to know & really know him more. I really wish that if one day ii could know why they broken up & ii really feel pity that y they broke esp ii find that the person ii like is not bad.
Haha one thing he never know ii always doing something so that ii can know him more. Example hMmmm cannot say. Well, ii find it it's silly but ii just can't help it. And each time being wif him ii know him more which I'm really very glad about. Actually ii did something writing all the memories we had but when ii know he had someone else & yeah ii 4gOt to mention maybe is another girl or his ex & ii stopped but the moments we spent ii will never 4gEt. Yeah, ii hope one day we can mutual feeling for each other & together but really lor ii don think this day will come ba. *sigh! Hmmm well ii shall end here by saying liking someone can be sweet & romantic but sour, bitter & heartache at times... Well, let natural take it courses ba, maybe he's just not into me lo. saded**
Well, this special guy have slowly, step a step enter into my heart. With him, ii will feel different emotion. Dunno y, when he was sad or sick, ii will feel upset & if he's happy or enthu, ii will feel the same as him.
Just recently, I had a guy friend told me he like me & hug me but I can't bring myself to hug him. And it's like very weird, that special guy sudden appear in my mind... I thought ii had given up on him cOs he did said something indirectly & ii knew we can never be together but just when my guy friend hug me ii pushed him away. Anyway ii dOn think he will like me too cOs of ... ... Maybe I like him will always keep inside my heart.
I reM. here a English saying: "some people are meant to be in love but not meant to be." I agree, probably I not meant to be wif him not even mention about liking him. Haha most funniest thing, he always thought I like another person but he doesn't know all along ii like him. Lol. However, I'm disappointed too cOs ii can't feel he like me at all... Maybe we're just good friend that only laugh together, play together but not into relationship. I don't mean soon but ii think will never too. Sometimes ii really envy of his ex-girlfriend, she got his heart & ii 99.9% gurantee that his heart still wif her no matter wat problems or feelings he facing. He will just keep it into his heart & ii doubt he will mention to me ba eventhough ii really wanted to know & really know him more. I really wish that if one day ii could know why they broken up & ii really feel pity that y they broke esp ii find that the person ii like is not bad.
Haha one thing he never know ii always doing something so that ii can know him more. Example hMmmm cannot say. Well, ii find it it's silly but ii just can't help it. And each time being wif him ii know him more which I'm really very glad about. Actually ii did something writing all the memories we had but when ii know he had someone else & yeah ii 4gOt to mention maybe is another girl or his ex & ii stopped but the moments we spent ii will never 4gEt. Yeah, ii hope one day we can mutual feeling for each other & together but really lor ii don think this day will come ba. *sigh! Hmmm well ii shall end here by saying liking someone can be sweet & romantic but sour, bitter & heartache at times... Well, let natural take it courses ba, maybe he's just not into me lo. saded**
Monday, January 3, 2011
Dunno Y today's lots lof Inspiration!!!
Yo Bloggy, today ii am to blog again. Today stay @ home the whole day Facebook-ing!!! Lol. I think break record whole day Facebook for 12 hours lo.. Haha!!
And and and dunno y lots of inspiration today & ii post quite alot in my Facebook Status & ii wanna share, here it goes!!!
1st post: "If u were talking about me, for me & TO ME!!!! Yay yeaHe!!!!!! ^^ "
2nd post:
"Do u think is alike?? See if u can differentiates... haha!
* White lies vs. lies??
*Kind vs. stupid?? (ppl say when kind means stupid as ppl tk advantage & stupid ppl will also tk advantage.) So?? lol
*Cheating vs. bluffing??
*Intention vs. motive?
*Dislike vs.hate??
*Apart vs. a part??
*Love vs lust?? Haha if u can differeniates, u can gEt my meaning & another view of angle seeing all this. heEex. ^^"
3rd post: "Being Negative or having Weaknesses are nothing cOs there's Positive & Changes to make. So this is also y Life's full of Up & Down!!!! *wiNk** "
And the Last post:
Y this ♥ symbol like this< 3??? Cos it's not more than 3!!!! & eg. chocolate to elabourate...
One chocolate - You're my only one
Two chocolates - Missing u
Three chocalates - I love you
Sweet right?!! Dunno y it came into my mind few mins ago. =p
See omg!!! I'm sOooo proud of myself, like a genius today lor, haha!!! Anyway forgotten New Year New Begining New Look! Oh ya, just 4gOtten tat ii had perm my hair on 1 January 2011 haha. Kinda like it cOs very sick of straight hair already. ^^ aNd ya 31st Dec 2010 went Seoul Garden @ Ngee Ann wif Christina Yeo, Grace Lee, Don Koh & Kamy, after tat Barley & Amirul joined in 4 countdown. Omg!!!! D Fireworks was VERY very Very nice lor, thanks to all their choosing spot. Though feeling sticky la but had great fun!!! heEex. ^^
Btw, there's alot ii finally understood d meaning le today, eh~ ii dunno how to elabourate la just ii understood lor.. LOL!!! B-)
And and and dunno y lots of inspiration today & ii post quite alot in my Facebook Status & ii wanna share, here it goes!!!
1st post: "If u were talking about me, for me & TO ME!!!! Yay yeaHe!!!!!! ^^ "
2nd post:
"Do u think is alike?? See if u can differentiates... haha!
* White lies vs. lies??
*Kind vs. stupid?? (ppl say when kind means stupid as ppl tk advantage & stupid ppl will also tk advantage.) So?? lol
*Cheating vs. bluffing??
*Intention vs. motive?
*Dislike vs.hate??
*Apart vs. a part??
*Love vs lust?? Haha if u can differeniates, u can gEt my meaning & another view of angle seeing all this. heEex. ^^"
3rd post: "Being Negative or having Weaknesses are nothing cOs there's Positive & Changes to make. So this is also y Life's full of Up & Down!!!! *wiNk** "
And the Last post:
Y this ♥ symbol like this< 3??? Cos it's not more than 3!!!! & eg. chocolate to elabourate...
One chocolate - You're my only one
Two chocolates - Missing u
Three chocalates - I love you
Sweet right?!! Dunno y it came into my mind few mins ago. =p
See omg!!! I'm sOooo proud of myself, like a genius today lor, haha!!! Anyway forgotten New Year New Begining New Look! Oh ya, just 4gOtten tat ii had perm my hair on 1 January 2011 haha. Kinda like it cOs very sick of straight hair already. ^^ aNd ya 31st Dec 2010 went Seoul Garden @ Ngee Ann wif Christina Yeo, Grace Lee, Don Koh & Kamy, after tat Barley & Amirul joined in 4 countdown. Omg!!!! D Fireworks was VERY very Very nice lor, thanks to all their choosing spot. Though feeling sticky la but had great fun!!! heEex. ^^
Btw, there's alot ii finally understood d meaning le today, eh~ ii dunno how to elabourate la just ii understood lor.. LOL!!! B-)
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Seriously ii wish to know why & how...
Hi Bloggy, I'm here to update. Whenever ii feel emo and ii will update. 1st of all ii really wish to know everything d past about tat "someone", ii wish to reveal but ii can't cOs ii not brave enough to reveal. If time is right or ... ... maybe then ii will. Sorry, haha! But ii guess sO far only 2 person know about tat"someone" cOs they are the person ii most trusted person.
U know what everyday ii just wish to do wat tat "someone doing" sO ii will find out myself. Well, ii used to be initiative but after one of my guy friend which he played alot of role in my life, he did mentioned tatmaybe tat "someone" will know I herherm herherm him sO best not to be like this & ii feel that he got the point lo. I finally understood how liking a person like, u wish him happy & if he's happy u will to & if he's not, u too. Well, but ii have to really hide it very well & too bad ii can't reveal towards him & worst feeling is sometimes he's so near but yet so far..
I almost know everything about him le & even his weaknesses but I can't ask him cOs one side ii don wish to upset mentioning his past, the other side I afraid he will suspect. So ya... ii wonder u guys have this kind of feeling before. I look back his past & ii feel that they really very loving lor but y?? If watever he did for her just like to me, ii will feel happy but ii also scared I'm not good enough 4 him or competible. Actually ii feel like giving up cOs ii think of all d bad stuff for myself preparation & ii really feel ii ... ... Secondly ii totally understand wat he been through now cOs ii fallen out of love too. And for me.. I feel that that's so much for me to bear & ii don hav that confidence to bear too due to my past hurting relationship. I really envied her, really envied envied...
Serious ii dunno wat to do, liking a person can be sweet at times but also sour or bitter. I'm not afraid of continueing but there's lots of factors for me to consider lo & d more feeling ii felt towards him, the more ii ... Just not a good sign la ii think. (*sigh) But one things ii can share wif u guys, every moment ii spent close to tat "someone" I update orhx!!! Where & who ii can't tell cOs ii just like to keep as memories will do. ^^
U know what everyday ii just wish to do wat tat "someone doing" sO ii will find out myself. Well, ii used to be initiative but after one of my guy friend which he played alot of role in my life, he did mentioned tatmaybe tat "someone" will know I herherm herherm him sO best not to be like this & ii feel that he got the point lo. I finally understood how liking a person like, u wish him happy & if he's happy u will to & if he's not, u too. Well, but ii have to really hide it very well & too bad ii can't reveal towards him & worst feeling is sometimes he's so near but yet so far..
I almost know everything about him le & even his weaknesses but I can't ask him cOs one side ii don wish to upset mentioning his past, the other side I afraid he will suspect. So ya... ii wonder u guys have this kind of feeling before. I look back his past & ii feel that they really very loving lor but y?? If watever he did for her just like to me, ii will feel happy but ii also scared I'm not good enough 4 him or competible. Actually ii feel like giving up cOs ii think of all d bad stuff for myself preparation & ii really feel ii ... ... Secondly ii totally understand wat he been through now cOs ii fallen out of love too. And for me.. I feel that that's so much for me to bear & ii don hav that confidence to bear too due to my past hurting relationship. I really envied her, really envied envied...
Serious ii dunno wat to do, liking a person can be sweet at times but also sour or bitter. I'm not afraid of continueing but there's lots of factors for me to consider lo & d more feeling ii felt towards him, the more ii ... Just not a good sign la ii think. (*sigh) But one things ii can share wif u guys, every moment ii spent close to tat "someone" I update orhx!!! Where & who ii can't tell cOs ii just like to keep as memories will do. ^^
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