Hi Bloggy, I'm here to update. Whenever ii feel emo and ii will update. 1st of all ii really wish to know everything d past about tat "someone", ii wish to reveal but ii can't cOs ii not brave enough to reveal. If time is right or ... ... maybe then ii will. Sorry, haha! But ii guess sO far only 2 person know about tat"someone" cOs they are the person ii most trusted person.
U know what everyday ii just wish to do wat tat "someone doing" sO ii will find out myself. Well, ii used to be initiative but after one of my guy friend which he played alot of role in my life, he did mentioned tatmaybe tat "someone" will know I herherm herherm him sO best not to be like this & ii feel that he got the point lo. I finally understood how liking a person like, u wish him happy & if he's happy u will to & if he's not, u too. Well, but ii have to really hide it very well & too bad ii can't reveal towards him & worst feeling is sometimes he's so near but yet so far..
I almost know everything about him le & even his weaknesses but I can't ask him cOs one side ii don wish to upset mentioning his past, the other side I afraid he will suspect. So ya... ii wonder u guys have this kind of feeling before. I look back his past & ii feel that they really very loving lor but y?? If watever he did for her just like to me, ii will feel happy but ii also scared I'm not good enough 4 him or competible. Actually ii feel like giving up cOs ii think of all d bad stuff for myself preparation & ii really feel ii ... ... Secondly ii totally understand wat he been through now cOs ii fallen out of love too. And for me.. I feel that that's so much for me to bear & ii don hav that confidence to bear too due to my past hurting relationship. I really envied her, really envied envied...
Serious ii dunno wat to do, liking a person can be sweet at times but also sour or bitter. I'm not afraid of continueing but there's lots of factors for me to consider lo & d more feeling ii felt towards him, the more ii ... Just not a good sign la ii think. (*sigh) But one things ii can share wif u guys, every moment ii spent close to tat "someone" I update orhx!!! Where & who ii can't tell cOs ii just like to keep as memories will do. ^^
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