Yo, I'm here to Blog again! Oh yeah, I realized these 3 days I been Blogging. Ok, that's a good thing too shows that I'm hardworking. BHB much?!! Lol. K la, get to topic.
Today CCA at Sarah Senior Activity Centre & is my second time visit. Well, I feel that I'm not that scared, nervous, strange to me compare to when I visited the 1st time. Hohoho, great improvement ah, Jaslin! *Ps, praising myself, lol.* Hmmm have fun there, we planned for the old folks watched Mr. Bean, sing & lastly dance. HAHAHAHA, I laugh hilariously as I saw Johnnathan dance. Gosh! But his singing not bad uh! I think due to the dance it really live a 1st deep impression of him as I dunno him. Well, it feel really great that doing something meaningful & helping others. BEST of all, seeing the old folks happy, I feel happy too Oh ya, I wanna show off something too, I sang leh "Lao Shu Ai Dai Mi & Yue Liang Dai Pai Wo de Xin!! heheEex but hor after singing, I feel damn embarrassing! Ok la, overall got the sense of satisfaction.
After that, A'in & I plan to study at PP Library. Before that we went to A'in house to take her EBA book & I waited downstairs then finally we reached our destination. Yeah! And guess what my Iphone left 3% of battery & luckily a kind man lent me his laptop for me to charge my phone as today then I know PP Library they don't allow people to use their socket to charge hp, only MAIN FOR LAPTOP! *Change le change le*
Then we studied 2 hours, ok la, kinda feel today not wasting my entire day & time, at least did something meaningful & absorb some information from EBA book into my brain.
And now I'm HOME!!! Well, and it's my EMOING SHIT time. Y?? I'm not being mood swing, temperamental or thinking too much BUT recalling what my guy friend told me during Midnight 2am-4am on phones. To be honest speaking, I'm in a confused state & the topic is one of my weaknesses. Should I reveal on Blog? Well, ok ba no harm too yahx?
I'm in love with someone & I shouldn't love him due to some factors which I really can't says and also after that guy friend of mine told me. I dunno should I continue loving him or giving up, but thinking to it, the best way is to give up not to make myself fall deeper & suffering but it's easy to say than done. Argghhh! HATE this feeling now & also HATE myself! HATE this feeling as it's complicated & HATE myself for being useless, dared not confess my feeling towards him & I don't want cause I scared after revealing, we can't be friends & feel awake towards each other. See?!! Feel like I can suicide then. *Pull my hands, don't stop me!* Haix, dunno la, what I can say is, either my feeling towards him fade away or these will always remain unsolved & complicated. :(
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