Take picture of myself & looking forward overnight &send a classmate off.

Borrrrriiiiiiinnnngggg!!!! Today bored to death, stay at home whole day. Ok la, actually my friend did spam me go out but I rejected, lol. And sO use com lor, watched show from Xinmsn esp "C.l.i.f " <---- two thumps up. I love the way they SUSPECT, INVESTIGATE, CRACK, PROOF & ARREST! Of course, life & emotion as well. If u understand what I mean, congrates u're a stepping a stone forward me. LOL.

Then after watching show nothing to do, take picture of myself. Hmmm two photos only la without smiling de. I feel that people might find fierce but to me photos without smile, very COOL & VOGUE! Posted in my Facebook oh, u can take a look. ") And and and I set as my Display Pic, wahahahaha!! B-)

All right, I'm waiting for time to pass so later on can overnight @ Changi Airport & seNd my classmate off. Oh yes, this is my 2nd time overnight cause previously had once & very fun but today ones I hope so too. Y hope so, u might wondering?? Haha, long story but what I can say is though we're no longer friend but I won't because of that particular person, lost all of my friend. How awful to see other, it's okay I will tolerate. Sometimes, really I feel funny & weird happen in life, you may be very good with this person  but one moment, u & that person distance between each other. Hahaha! B-)

Today's happening & full of complex prob in my mind..

Yo, I'm here to Blog again! Oh yeah, I realized these 3 days I been Blogging. Ok, that's a good thing too shows that I'm hardworking. BHB much?!! Lol. K la, get to topic.


Today CCA at Sarah Senior Activity Centre & is my second time visit. Well, I feel that I'm not that scared, nervous, strange to me compare to when I visited the 1st time. Hohoho, great improvement ah, Jaslin! *Ps, praising myself, lol.* Hmmm have fun there, we planned for the old folks watched Mr. Bean, sing & lastly dance. HAHAHAHA, I laugh hilariously as I saw Johnnathan dance. Gosh! But his singing not bad uh! I think due to the dance it really live a 1st deep impression of him as I dunno him. Well, it feel really great that doing something meaningful & helping others. BEST of all, seeing the old folks happy, I feel happy too Oh ya, I wanna show off something too, I sang leh "Lao Shu Ai Dai Mi & Yue Liang Dai Pai Wo de Xin!! heheEex but hor after singing, I feel damn embarrassing! Ok la, overall got the sense of satisfaction.


After that, A'in & I plan to study at PP Library. Before that we went to A'in house to take her EBA book & I waited downstairs then finally we reached our destination. Yeah! And guess what my Iphone left 3% of battery & luckily a kind man lent me his laptop for me to charge my phone as today then I know PP Library they don't allow people to use their socket to charge hp, only MAIN FOR LAPTOP! *Change le change le*
 Then we studied 2 hours, ok la, kinda feel today not wasting my entire day & time, at least did something meaningful & absorb some information from EBA book into my brain.


And now I'm HOME!!! Well, and it's my EMOING SHIT time. Y?? I'm not being mood swing, temperamental or thinking too much BUT recalling what my guy friend told me during Midnight 2am-4am on phones. To be honest speaking, I'm  in a confused state & the topic is one of my weaknesses. Should I reveal on Blog? Well, ok ba no harm too yahx?


I'm in love with someone & I shouldn't love him due to some factors which I really can't says and also after that guy friend of mine told me. I dunno should I continue loving him or giving up, but thinking to it, the best way is to give up not to make myself fall deeper & suffering but it's easy to say than done. Argghhh! HATE this feeling now & also HATE myself! HATE this feeling as it's complicated & HATE myself for being useless, dared not confess my feeling towards him & I don't want cause I scared after revealing, we can't be friends & feel awake towards each other. See?!! Feel like I can suicide then. *Pull my hands, don't stop me!* Haix, dunno la, what I can say is, either my feeling towards him fade away or these will always remain unsolved & complicated. :(

Have Fun with @ KBOX & Angry as well..

1st of all, I'm sO happy! Yeahhh got to KBOX finally, though only we 3 Person, DK, KK & I. Y do I say that eh?? Well, because since 6 months ago, BO, DK & GL & I planned go KBOX one day but don't have lor till today we just K. Wohoooo!! Oh wait, KK was not in part in planning, surprising we 3 together go KBOx leh.

Have fun & daMn hilarious laugh. Thanks to DK, he & KK sang "Wu Ding" & the way he imitated "Wu Zong Xian" make me laugh till non-stop. HAHA! And worst, sang the "Si Le Duo Yao Ai, AH XIN from Xing Yue Tuan" Nightmare lor... Like thousands of chicken being kill. They wanna sing High Pitch but really CMI (can't make it.) Muahahaha!! Really I laugh till jaw numb & stomach pain.

Then after KBOX we go Slack at Marina Bay, the Esplanade there. LOL! Ok la, we slack there around 1 hour like this, haha. DK & KK cam while I really Emo shit there! Hahaha. Oh ya, DK asked me later wanna go AMK eat dinner, I say ok then he said call GL also cause she live AMK too. I said anything, ok ah sO we went to AMK to eat.

So when we saw GL, we happily greet her butt guess what??!! We get a harsh scolding from her! WTF?!! Do u know what she scolded us? She scolded  us for being late & waited for us sO long. We apologized to her & she add on saying that not a word sorry can meant to resolve this k. My parents already went out eat and come back digest till dunno what & I'm starving here. After I hear, I "KUM PAO TU LAN" lor. To me, only u starving meh?! I'm also starving lor, DK & KK at least ate T bits then me eh, I did not eat leh. 2ndly, people thought of u so call u out for dinner leh but u simply sound like we owned u like this. WTF Much?!!! And then I feel stupid lor, I still apologized to her when I don't find I got anything wrong. KNN! If u were in my position, how would u feel? Unfair & feel like slapping + "Fcuk" upside down lor. *chilled*Well, oh well I guess after this incident, I see true her true colour & next time if ever DK asked wanna ask GL for dinner anot, I will say. Up to you, I don't wish the incident occurred again. Damn Idiotic!

The New Changes I want for myself!

Yo my beloved blogs! It been ages to see u & update u & sO here I am, wahahahahaha!!! Ok... get to topic.

Recently, many negative things happen & seriously it made me really very down down down. Not only that, people, environment which made me really feel like running away & worst I had the thought of commit suicide. Crazy right?!! Yes, and this is I feel useless at times & I had negative aspect in people & life. BUT after all this SHITS, thanks to a friend of me, he told me. "Jaslin, no matter what stay positive". I remembered once I asked him. So what I'm positive but yet people keep adding negative?!! He replied me: "If people really give u rubbish, are u really going to accept it as yes, it's rubbish or turn into a rubbish bin & asked them to throw themselves instead?" Well, it really knocked some senses to me. He added on: " Do u know "dash"? A symbol like this (-) Is called "Minus" as well. "Minus negative & add a plus which turn out to be positive" so in life, there's bounds to be positive & negative & most important how are u going to add positive instead of negative? A very challenging Qns, I love it!

So these few days, plenty & multi of thoughts & Finally I decided to change in myself. I got to stop all the negativity of people, environment & myself. So what if I remains negative, ppl are not going to feel pity or sorry about me. And I don't wanna be a weaklings too. Yes, women needs protection but they can be strong too. Agree??

I guess I no longer be the same, not only less cheerful, less simple but more quiet as well. And the reason was simple, I'm no longer naive & simple, I throughly see the ugly side of humans & seriously I HATE IT TO CORE! Y must u ugly people spoil the innocent & simple-minded people?!! Does really doing this u makes u happy?!! I seriously suggest u see PSYCHIATRIST, u are SICK! U know?? Well, it doesn't matter, no ones like to admit they are sick or crazy even though they are one, haha.

I remembered I told one of my guy friend all this prob & guess what he say?? He said: "Jaslin, u've really grow up & I'm so happy for you." I was like "hEy I telling u all this prob & can u be more serious?!!!" He laughed & continue saying: "Yes, I'm being serious with u too & I'm really happy." My facial expression (-_-)"' Anyway, thinking back, maybe I really grow up if not not I won't be thinking complicated and live simple.

Anyway I've to thanks these ugly side of people cause u made naive people smart & I strongly believe in KARMA. There's a saying: "What's goes around comes around" so it's only a matter of time. Another thing, because of these ugly people, ugly stuff, I lost trust in people. Not only that I learned to be Independence, same goes to relationship as well. After been through all the hurts, I dare not love again. Even though I have someone in mind, I dare not confessed & don't have the courage as well. "I'm Useless right?" I always thinking myself like this. It no longer matters who walk beside me & end the journey because I can't even move the first step & haven't put all the past behind me. Even if I thought of trying, I'm afraid & the past experience keep taunting me. I dunno how, I really dunno..

And the someone in mind, I guess he also have someone else in mind too, the cycle just goes around. I remembered I had liked a guys for 2 years without him knowing & I guess this time round will be also like this. Sometimes I don't understand y, the person u really can click well & like can't be together and still I will still choose u. HAHA! B-) I wonder, what if I really confessed my feeling to u?? What your reaction is??Will u reject me?? Sometimes I just hope that u can feel it & know it without verbally saying out however I know we are impossible.

Haix.. So many things happen & tons of emotions but none be express out. How I wish just leave everything behind & MIA. I too exhausted but don't think so I can, my work place need me & I've 5 projects in my hands now, not to forget my roles as a daughter too. Worst still, ugly people & giving u all the shit, don't give a damn. I wish to give up eveything, can I?? *sigh. I think stop here ba, tat's all.

My question of what is friends...

I've questioning myself this question... What friends for & what does friendship means? Do u guys really believe true friends exist in this realistic world?? For me is a no-no. I find that in putting good words, friends are to help each other but in another words, friends are using each other, isn't it? Last time I used to be very good to all my friends but they prove me wrong by treating them right, shall I still have to be kind towards them? Well, it's a tough decision for me to decide.

Can we live without friends?? Been asking myself this question . Ive been thinking in future, we will each have our own lifestyle to live, do we really need friends? haha! I know what is friends about but I don't think in this world, friends exist. Sometimes I just love to isolate myself from others & people said" two heads is better than one" but I find that if no failure u will never learn & if so, what is think out of the box then??

My recent updates & worrying + how I feel...

Yo! It been quite some time not updating my blog le, lol. Yesterday had a great chat with Mavis Ong, 1st time we chat from 10am till midnight 2 am. *cool~ HAHA!! We chat alot alot.. Well, wat's impress me most that she told me that she find herself very old already, hopefully gEt into a relationship to stable & bear a child before the age of 30. I was like... ...(stunned) Very old meh 22 years old?!!! I'm noot even reach 21 yet lehhh.. Hahahaha! Then sudden came an weird uncle told us that there were a couple malay quarelling, we two looking at each other... But I admire Mavis response, she dared & firmed to say: "Dunno, nothing to do with us" in chinese. For me, I will see how the situation is & might shout loudly. Pheww... In the end, we lied said going home but actually we changed to another place continue our chatting. LOL!


Oh ya, these few days I've been a good girl lehh, dunno which of my mind go hay wire. After work go home do housework. Though doing bit by bit to packed, clean, tidy but I believed in no time I can see the result of my house turned into a place where I always think. HAHAHAHA! B-) And and and tml shall be a day of we 3 sisters gathering after my work, hahahahaha! *looking forward*


Well, these past few weeks, learned alot & gain lots of knowledge. Though I loss something but I gained more than what I loss & more valuable & I realised that in life is full of up's & down, this is y when down, people throw u rubbish, turn into rubbishbin & if throw u lemond, turn into lemonade. My this job is going to move out soon after 16 May, still thinking should I find another job or relax for the time being?? Finding another job isn't easy, new environment, new people got to adapt & worry I can't cope my studies as this is my final semester. Another side if relax for the time being I can fully concentrate my studies but no income, how how how?? Actually what I want & looking for is a job that solely taking care of the shop & at the same time I can study. But where the hell can I find?!!! haIx...

Another thing, I'm not going to share my feelings & my probs already. If people misunderstood of me, let it be as I believed action speaks louder than words. Sometimes it's tiring, I do hope someone truely know me well without speaking vrbally at times.