Bloggy, here ii wanna share something with u. Hmmm ii dunno why my feeling go back to him. Actually before my ex-boyfriend, ii liked him but because in the end ii choose my ex-boyfriend so we actually ended up normal friend & seldom communicate. Well, ii should put it in a way to say we're just normal friend but ii enjoyed being with him, bickering with him & communicate with him.
Although I dun really know him well and less outing with him or with a group of friends but ii feel comfortable with him. Sometimes ii emoing, he will do something to cheer me up or stay silently with me. He change quite alot for now which ii like him more. In the past avtually ii feel something for him but ii dared not say and ii asked myself these question before:
*Why ii like him?
*What makes me fall for him?
*Am ii really like him or just a crush?
After liking him, can ii accept his weakness as well?
I already can accept his weakness but still in d end ii choosed my ex-boyfriend. Reason ii think because we both did not express out or fear being rejected.
Actually ii feel nothing towards him cOs ii still loved my ex-boyfriend but the process when we both together, my feeling goes back to him again. We had less memories together but watever it happened, ii dunno y ii can remember clearly.
Eg: Sharing of umbrella; whenever we go home together after school; when ii heart-brokened he cheered me up; he asked me to accompanied him buy things for his sister. As for now which happened just yesterday...
Eg: He accompained me sent a friend to bus-stopmaybe he's worried as I'm a lady, he helped me take meat ball as ii complained ii never ate d meatball at all & late midnight he sent me home. I like this kind of feeling which is sooo sweet, haha.
Well, ii just wanna express it out ii like him but ii wont go together with him Reason there will be alot but of the d main reason, he's too good, ii don think I'm good enough for him & other worries as well. Haix.. .. But still enjoyed being with him.
Here is some words just wanna let him know & expressing, ii might not always be good sometimes ii just put on a front. I wanna confessed to him but I'm afraid how he look & think of me. If he really like me, hope he can accept my past, now & future. Also, I'm might not be a good girlfriend but ii will try my very best to understand him, giving him support and other etc. So actually ii dunno how he feel towards me but ii like him haha! Hopefully we can stay our friendship like this always! *wiNk**
